Matilda da Midget (llueve_nublado) wrote,
Matilda da Midget

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fuck this

I just don't even know. What the fuck is wrong with the fucking world and everything in it? It's easy to try complacency and say "something good will happen" when you can actually vest a little faith in it, but after a certain point, there's a break. I don't know why, but I doubt anything good will happen. As much as I try to live right and do the right fucking thing, I'm still left with nothing. Fired for bullshit reasons when I have a goal with my money (a goal that will be left unconquered due to firings). Is there some damned curse preventing me from being able to hold a job? I do everything right, try my best, and am rewarded with...nothing. How the fuck is this supposed to be perceived? An egregious error in justice is basically my life now and I'm sick of it. I just want things to change for the better, but that seems like a quixotic dream. If I could, I'd get the hell out of here and away from it all - move somewhere where a fresh start could begin because this whole damned coast is a hole that I can't stop falling into.

Like, how do I deserve this crap? And like anybody else is helpful. People who are far worse than me are rewarded while I feel consistently punished. It's BULLSHIT! All I want is enough cash for a computer, but that won't happen because of the jobs. I have a job now, but it's not enough. Like, why am I getting fired for no reason? WHAT DID I DO???? Why can't I get the things others have? Why am I always getting the shit end of the stick? Why won't my family help pay for the computer (because they are just as down as I am, probably)? WHY WON'T THE WORLD WORK?
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